Just like a circus...

I feel the adrenaline moving through my veins, spotlight on me and I'm ready to break...

All eyes on me in the center of the ring just like a circus...

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Alright, so I have this certain group of friends who I constantly find myself the center of. Don't get me wrong, I'm absolutely flattered that they love me, love spending time with me, and want to show me that. However, I constantly find myself the one making the plans, and making sure they happen. Don't get me wrong, I plan and plan well. I just want for a few times, to be one of the ones who just gets to show up with a bottle of wine and have a good night. I'm also tired of the way I'm being used in a lot of my other relationships. I don't feel valued. I know that God's setting me aside right now to do great. That's extremely apparent. With some of my passions in life at a standstill, such as writing, music, and connecting with new people, and lots of quiet times all of a sudden, I know I'm being prepared to do great things...

That said, I wish that there was some balance in life. Just a little. I love balance.

Above

I'm above all things because Christ lives in me. I'm living life, because Christ lives in me. I am renewed because Christ lives in me. I am strong for ever, because Christ lives in me...

That has potentially become my new life motto. I am made in the image of Christ and this Easter season I am reminded of it.

ReCALL - that He is good.
ReCOUNT - that He is eternal.
ReMEMBER - that through Him all things are possible.

I have been doing a lot of thinking about who I am lately and I'm pleasantly surprised most of the time. There are definitely still areas that I need work on, but there's definitely strong points in my personality as well. I am tired of seeking the material, I am tired of being unoriginal, I am tired of not living up to my God given potential. He has called me into a realm of greatness. A realm of so much power to help others succeed around me. I need to embrace it. Really. Truly. I have so much opportunity in my life, but I'm refusing to use it. I need to. I have this sense of urgency all of a sudden. I love being urgent. It gets things done.

iLOVE - character traits within

iLove.me. These are the things iLove about me. In no certain order.

I love that I'm extremely punctual.
I love that I can hold conversation well.
I love that I attract amazing people and adventures.
I love that sunrises inspire me.
I love my family.
I love that I am me.
I love that I look darn good with a carefully selected lip gloss.
I love that I look darn good without it too.
I love the fact that I really know how to write.
I love that I am extremely friendly.
I love the fact that kids are magnetically attracted to me.
I love the fact that the parents of these children trust me wholeheartedly.
I love that my co-workers have become amazing friends.
I love that I am an amazing friend.
I love that I bring the best out of people.
I love that I have been placed in the most beautiful part of the world to live.
I love that I like to travel so I can find more beautiful places.
I love that I have a beautiful family.
I love that I feel loved every day.
I love my ability to help others.
I love my ability to trust others.
I love my ability to help others trust others.
I love my work ethic.
I love that I am being influenced through positive interaction with my mentors.
I love my stunner shades.
I love my ability to make a situation very awkward and then bring it back within minutes.
I love that I love going hardcore.
I love my coffee knowledge.
I love that I'm smarter than I let myself truly believe.
I love that I've come from bad habits to develop really great ones.
I love that I'm a canvas for God to paint a new painting on each day.
I love that He has chosen me to be a canvas.
I love my creative abilities.
I love solving problems before they're problems because of my intuitive nature.
I love creating a dynamic circle of friendships around me.
I love my nocturnal lifestyle.
I love that I challenge myself to go to new heights.
I love that I truly let music affect me.
I love that I create songs every moment within my head and heart.
I love my music collection.
I love my ability to share.
I love my focus.
I love my drive.
I love me.

Yep, it's a start of a list, but it's so very true. Each and every point is valid. No, I don't believe that I'm cocky with it. I try not to let negative into my heart, because this is what lies within my heart. This is what TRULY is within my heart. Now, if only I could let this show, just a little more. Then I would really be on top of my game. Write this list yourself. Pray for me. Pray for you. I promise, I'm already praying for you!