Believe.

believe. believe. believe.

I need to do this. I'm failing. I need to believe in my destiny. I need to harness the power of my dream. I am so beside myself right now. I wish I knew what the outcome was. Actually, no I don't. I just want to know the thought process on the other side at this exact moment. I want to feel the love that I hope is there. I want to know my loyalty isn't in vain. I want to have it reciprocated in a big way...

I think there's potentially some repressed feelings here. That's another essay for another day though.

I just need to believe. I need to believe that things will work themselves out.